This book is a MUST HAVE for anyone trying to understand how crack can take an otherwise responsible, honest, loving person and turn them into a pathetic crackhead overnight. It is an on-going project that I actually started writing years ago. Due to my struggle with this hideous drug I did not accomplish much during the time that I was smoking crack. Once I found hope in a ministry that focuses on helping "crack-heads" like myself, I decided to diligently persue finishing this book. The book is being written from my perspective addressing my five years of consistent crack use, and from my mother's perspective as she reflects on my life before and during my crack use.
I chose "No More Forever" as the title of my book because when I made the choice to stop using crack cocaine I was sick and tired of the fight. Chief Joseph's statement, "I am tired. My heart is sick and sad." describes exactly how I was beginning to feel everyday. Using crack is a constant fight against God and better judgment. The day I quit I prayed and told God that I was tired of fighting and I just could not do it anymore. This book is just one of the outlets I am using to attack and fight crack cocaine.
Hear me, my chiefs. I am tired.
My heart is sick and sad. From where the sun now stands, I will fight no more forever-
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce Native American Tribe
I struggled with this addiction for five years. During those five years I was in and out of three 12 step in-patient rehabs, four 12 step out-patient rehabs, worked with 5 different psychiatrist who prescribed me more varieties of drugs then I care to remember, saw 6 different medical doctors, was taken to the emergency room four different times for overdoses and lived with 4 different relatives at various times to try and escape crack. Nothing worked. One day while surfing the internet in search of something that might help me overcome my addiction I came across a crack cocaine recovery support website and ministry that offered me a way to fight this addiction in an alternative manner. The program has helped numerous crack addicts conquer crack and for the first time in my life I felt that I had finally found hope. I had finally found a “way out” of the crack trap. I did not feel doomed to smoke crack for the rest of my life.
The pages of "No More Forever" are my story. There have been many books written about cocaine, crack, drug use, recovery, etc. but this is "my story" and I am holding nothing back. My intention is by no means to glorify or romanticize crack cocaine. There are millions of people with millions of crack stories and I do not claim to have done anything different, however, I spent five years lying and deceiving everyone I knew and this book is the honest truth of what I did, what I experienced, and how I finally had to hit rock-bottom before I decided enough is enough. The following story is "true" and although it is embarrassing and hard to admit I did some of the things I did, I pray that through this story others may find a way to conquer the horrors of crack. This story will be especially helpful for those non-users who are trying to understand just what happened to the one they love. It will help non-users to gain a better understanding of how this hideous drug can take a person who, before crack, was responsible, reliable, loving, honest and hard working, and turn them into a worthless human being that only exists to smoke crack cocaine.
The book I have advertised here is in PDF format and can be read using the "Free Adobe Reader."
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**Those who buy the book now will get Part 2 for free when I finish it by September 1, 2008**
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